The month of Ramadhan [is that] in which was revealed the Qur’an, a guidance for the people and clear proofs of guidance and criterion. So whoever sights [the new moon of] the month, let him fast it; and whoever is ill or on a journey – then an equal number of other days. Allah intends for you ease and does not intend for you hardship and [wants] for you to complete the period and to glorify Allah for that [to] which He has guided you; and perhaps you will be grateful.
Come on and seek blessings, goodness, obediences, learning and teaching the Religious Knowledge and in particular the personal obligatory knowledge in the month of forgiveness and mercy, and the month of the Qur’an. Do remember that the Messenger of Allah Sallallahu ‘alayhi wasallam used to the most generous in Ramadan.
It has been 1 year since my last written. After all the years, there are many things happened in my life and I think it was not an easy situation to face. I got terminated unilaterally from my previous company, we as an employee got no paid for more than 3 months. When I think about what was happened almost in the past two years in my life, I could not imagine, how could I live without any income? I started to think that I should do something. When I realized that the company was not in a good condition, I and my friend started to sell something to get a money. I made some necklaces, I learned the basic technique from my friend. Then, I could make it with my own creativity. I also sold some Batik clothes. Anyway, I am blessed because I could get a money from my selling.
In the other side, we (I and friends) always tried to get our money back from the company. We did a procedural things and asked our employer to solve the problem together. But they did not give a good response. Then, on January 2010, we found that we did not have a place to work anymore. Our chairs, tables, and all the computers was already cleaned. We all felt so angry. So, I was jobless and tried to look for another job. But at that time, I had not finish my study yet. I thought maybe it was a sign from Allah that I had to focus on making a mini thesis . Then I chose to finish it. I had to go to campus frequently to consult with my mentor or maybe just went to library to look for some books and updated journals. So could you imagine, how could I handle it? But, fortunately, Alhamdulillah, I could. Maybe it was like a magic. In the other side, we (I and my colleague) still tried to get our money back from the company. Ya, we used the independence non profit law institution, LBH.
Finally, only in four months I finished my study. I am so thankful to Allah that Allah let me to do it. I was so relieve because I could move on another goals. I had to get a job. It was not easy to say it. I felt that I have nothing. At my age, I had not married yet, so what could I show to the people if I am also had no job? That things could drive myself to move forward. Then, I got a job, in one of Production Hose in Jakarta. My friend has been working here since Jun 2010 as the Assistant of the Director and I was being there as her assistant. This was not my dream work actually but I had to convince myself that this was my first gate that I had to enter. Allah already had a plan for all humans. I am very sure, that I will get mine soon or later. One day I got the interview in one of the big garment factory in Jakarta, they was offering me a position that I have been dream about, but the company is very far from my house. So, I was still considering it. Then, I got the opportunity in one of Japanese Newspaper in Jakarta, although it was not my dream job but the salary is good enough and I think I could also improve my English by working there. I am still remember that I felt so grateful that finally I got the job. Once again, Allah let me to get it.
What I am amazed is I felt like Allah really answer all my prayers. I always ask in orderly that I want to finish my study first, get a job and married. I could prove it that one by one, Allah gave me what Allah think is the best for me.
Although until now I have not get all my money back from my previous company, I still believe that if Allah let me to have it, soon or later I will get it, but if not, I have to try to release it. So now, all I can do is still trying to ask my previous employer to settle all my outstanding salaries then try to release is and let Allah finish it.
I believe that Allah always beside me as close as I could never imagine, so we just have to do what Allah already planned for us. Allah has our blue print, so, we do not have to worry about anything. Just hope for the best in our lives and let Allah make it come true. Just believe it, when you think your prayer is not answered yet, soon or later it will be answered. Allah knows the best for us, Allah always gives what we need not what we want.
I already live in Indonesia for 30 years. I am not saying that I do not enjoy my life time here; I really have a good time. But as I grow old, I found that life is not that easy. I experienced sadness when I broke up with my boyfriend, but I feel more sadness when I have to lose my father. I feel rejected when I found that my boyfriend was cheating on me but I feel being more rejected when I found that someone that I love already had a decision to make serious a relationship with the other girl. I feel disappointed when I was not chosen as one of a member of choir in my campus but I feel more disappointment when I could not pass a recruitment process in one of a big well-known company.
There were so many problems happened in my life, I feel that life is not fair. I am angry to everything. I saw that the world hates me. I feel tired, helpless, I feel that I want to give up my life. But is it happen because I make my life so dramatically? So what will happen if I saw that all those problems as a gift, I saw it as a appreciation, I saw it as a trust that Allah have gave me.
I am glad that I still believe in Allah. Although I ever mad to Allah. Allah never hates me, Allah always gives me a chance to live more each day. My parents told me that Allah always hear us, Allah never sleep. Then, after my contemplation, I know that I have the answer. I am the one who responsible for my life. What I already did in the past was all my decision. Allah always gives me an opportunity but I never using it seriously. I have to be more thankful for everything in my life. I should not give up when there are many obstacles in my life. I have to deal with it. That is why life is called a life. We have to be alive, fight for our life.
When I look around, see that there are still other people who suffer than me, that’s the reason that I have to be thankful and grateful for everything. Now, I have to say that I thankful for my normal 5 senses, fresh air that I breath, for all my family, for all my friends, for my education, for a place to live in, for a food that provided, for the sunshine, for the moon and the star that enlighten the night, for the beautiful sight likes sunrise, sunset, the sea, the mountain, the trees etc, for the universe, for everything that I don’t even aware and for A LIFE.
Thank you Allah for saving my life.